For God’s sake, I do not want to grow up anymore. I just want to stand behind your floral skirt and see everything in sneaky way. This world is so annoying and I just want to be quiet while sleeping in your arms. Oh Momma, out there have lots of things I have to face, and that all make me scare. I know you can not cover and protect me throughout life but now I do not know what to do, I am in the anxiety and panic hole, then I find myself so small and frail, Mom!
Momma I miss the time when we played swing in backyard, it was so much fun and I will never forget that. That is the most amazing thing I always want to come back for the second time in this life. Mom it is true, right?
I miss you so much now. People are right when said that only miss something when you lost that. I have lost thanks to you, I have lost the words “I love you” when we were together. And now here, it makes me feel extremely regretful. We had a pretty long time far away since the day I decided to leave home to find my own way. I thought everything will be fine, I have the courage and decisively to leave all the past behind but when it comes, I suddenly think I am wrong.
If you can read this letter, I sent a box of kisses to you with the message: There are things may have changed but this feelings never changed, it is just only rising dramatically or hidden deep down inside me!
Your little son.